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Apparently, because of a perspective problem.

This is a truly difficult problem when it comes to interpreting the world through the senses. Countless illusions seem to defy reality… yet they only defy the reality that the individual perceives. The perception of the viewer seems perfectly rational through their perspective… the real problem lies with the fact that our senses cannot be relied upon to form rational explanations, and that rational explanations in and of themselves can often be utterly and completely false!!!

It seems excessively contradictory to rely upon extra-sensory (Math is not a sense. Logic is not a sense. Imagination is arguably a sense, but not a classically considered one. Free-will is not a sense. (In the classical sense of the term ‘sense’)) perceptions to define my sensory perception of the world.

Yet so it is.

For instance; whatever it is that you do, wherever it is that you work, whoever you are and whatever your intelligence level (to a point, i suppose)… you know goddamn well that you are more intelligent than the stupid motherfuckers who lived on this planet 10,000 years ago. Now, if you could talk to one of those ancestors, if you could go back and speak with them for a while, you could teach them countless things that you yourself don’t even realize that you know! Even with the most elementary of modern teachings, you could quite possibly change all of history if you went back to the stone age with just that tiny fraction of what we know now.

So has reality itself changed? No, of course not. The only thing that has changed is our perception of reality.

That, is amazing.


Sitting in the breeze of the cold morning air, I arched my back and sat up straight allowing the moisture to coat my skin and revitalize my being as I drew in a fresh crisp breath of air. I glanced up and to the left (west by southwest of my position) and spotted that the moon was hanging in the blue sky at half full. The reflection of the light off the moon from the sun noted the position of the sun directly above and behind me but a bit to the south. I reflected inward for a moment to contemplate the rotation of the planet to factor into my senses the movement of the earth as we fly through space, and felt a sudden sense of revelation. I glanced down at the ground and perceived the line of the planets on the other side of the sphere beneath me, and was filled with awe as I imagined the greater sphere that encircled our system containing the various locations of the other spheres.

A voice came to me at some point along the line, and said to me “restricted access to this information.” cutting off my thoughts. I suddenly had lost the memory for a moment, but luckily i have conceptual imagery relocation techniques (I retain the building blocks as images, which I can relocate) which allow me to access deleted information. I accessed files on The Matrix and applied the ideas to quantum mechanics and chaos theory to allow me to retransmit my consciousness back to the individual that had redacted my memory folder.

In the blink of an eye, I appeared before him, and put my finger against his chest. “Don’t tread on me” I said as my energy enveloped his entire being. A cosmic burst shifted from the center of my being as my reverberations fluctuated through the matrices of possibilities. Shattering into pieces, his energy flow diminished greatly and vanished. My mind was free. “The matrix is known here, do not tread on me.”

Last weekend I had to do a bit of driving for the national guard. I was in a big truck called an LMTV. The thing only goes about 55 mph so I had plenty of time to think while I was driving down the interstate.

So anyways, I’m cruising along the Interstate without a radio at 55 mph, and I’m trying to think of things to keep me entertained over the next three hours. I look over to my right at the guy next to me named Mujahed Kuwa. Kuwa had a pretty interesting life story, and had seen things in his childhood that I would not wish upon anyone. He was born in Somalia and eventually had moved to Kenya before coming to the United States when he was 12. This was quite synchronous, I thought, as I had lived in Alaska before moving to the lower 48 at the age of 12.

At the moment Kuwa was sleeping. I looked back at the road and began to imagine a good dream for him. In my mind I was in Africa, following a cheetah through the grasslands. I began to imagine what it would be like to be the cheetah. My mind seemed to slip off into another quantum dimension, and I began to feel at one with the cheetah. To say this means that my imagination was fully immersed in the way that a cheetah would think, feel, smell… how it’s muscles would feel as it stalked through the grass searching for prey.

I then detached the video from my mind, and attempted to plant it in Kuwa’s mind. I didn’t ask him later on whether or not he had had a dream about cheetahs, but I should have.

After that, I detached from the image of the cheetah, and began to float above the grassland. I opened up my mind and transcended its’ limits, and allowed myself to search out the various animals in the area, so I could see through their eyes. I then floated higher in the sky, using my body as a focus point, and extended my vision into multiple animals at once. I could feel my ego dissolving into multiple viewpoints, a mouse somewhere in the grass, a grasshopper chirping in the distance. Though I felt open and receptive to the harmonies around me, I could also sense a lack of connection to the grass and the rocks and the air; so, I expanded my perspective out to include the vegetation and the inanimate objects.

As I did that, I felt supremely connected to much of what was around me. A nagging feeling came over me suddenly, and I still felt like I was not at one. Suddenly, I felt someone/something speak to me, and it said, “See through the light”. So, I attempted to shift my conscious perspective to that of the photons striking everywhere around me from the sun.

I could not have been more surprised with what I imagined. Trillions of light rays, streaking through space, headed for us here at Earth. These rays were doing nothing more than driving along the solar interstate, just as I was driving along our terrestrial interstate. I suddenly had this realization that I was consuming, devouring, literally capturing the energy of the sun’s rays as they struck me.

When light (consisting of the photon) strikes my eye, it gets absorbed by receptors and transmitted directly to the brain. Every single moment I am devouring millions if not billions of photons, gobbled up by my receptors and interpreted and digested by my unquenchable desire to ‘see’. I imagined the life of the photon, flying through space (picture the photon screaming wildly, like he’s driving a toyota that has the gas pedal stuck) and eventually smashing against the earth. The trees and animals and plants all greedily and mercilessly feasting on the never-ending onslaught of photons. See through the light, see the light being eaten and consumed by yourself and your surroundings. Witness the death of a photon. Damn that would make a funny cartoon.

Cruising along, I began to daydream about alternate plains of reality. It occurred to me that there is a reason that we should think upon the good. By imagining things which are good, we are reverberating along a wave fluctuation that permeates throughout the entire universe. We construct our realities through the quantum probability matrix. By focusing on permutations and fluctuations that are positive in value, it is possible to eventually eliminate all alternate realities, bringing new meaning to the idea that ‘sin is dead to me’. Through simple belief it actually may be possible to change reality.

This is based off of a dream.

In the dream, I was wandering through a future mall. It was a somewhat plain hallway, but there were many rooms spanning off. The rooms were built in amphitheater style (I always thought it was ampitheatre, guess not..) with little platform sections for the players. Each group/player had their own little section of space. Everyone was wearing contact lenses, and an attendant acquired me a pair. When I stepped into the small playing field that was my ‘space’/’seat’ (there was no chair), approx. 8 ft by 8 ft in area, a projector light shined into my eyes.


You see, the contact lenses were specially designed to refract and reflect certain wavelengths of light. So, when the projector shined the light in my playing area, they refracted off of the specially designed contacts, which in turn created an image on the contacts. This created an essentially 3-d rendering of the video game that I had stepped into, completely immersing me in the visuals of the war game room that I had chosen to enter (like I said, it was a mall, and there were many rooms spanning off, i.e. many video game rooms. I had chosen a gears of war style gameroom).

Using facial, eye, and body recognition software, along with numerous other aspects (i.e. psych profile, previous player motion history (to compile approximations on reaction time, decision making, etc)) the computer was able to analyze my motions and intuitively respond to my every move, making the gaming experience extremely functional.

It’s not too far-fetched to believe that the true revolution in 3-d will come with specialized contacts.

Seek Your Mantra

I lie amidst a clamorous web of illusions.
Destruction darts into my heart, though I try to defy the delusions.
From within did this begin.. or, am I a host to someone else’s confusion?

I retreat deep inside of me to escape from the delusions.
Yet words I would not ever think within me I perceive, adding further to my confusion.
What I’d believed to be choices made by me seem apparently guided to be by masterful illusions.

A light is shone from deep in my soul which is without any confusion.
When flicked it’s lit and blasts straight past any sort of devious illusion.
Though it lights the road at night my meager mind is still subject to succumb to delusions.

As I lie amidst yet another attack against my mind by the powerful illusions.
I close my eyes and focus right attempting to not play the fool and submit no longer to the confusion.
Yet the question remains, “if not from me then where do these pains come from” which only hastens my return to the delusions.

Confusion illusions and delusions, common irrationalities. Clear perception of reality eludes the most intelligent among we. For though it’s simple enough it would seem, the world and our perceptions are quite complicated things. In the mouth of madness brings a transcendental lucidity. For in inherent complexity sanity is seen as vexing. Thus the truth spawns untruth, and falsehood brings about the true.

Officially my first blog on WP. I suppose I should introduce myself.

I am a jack of all trades. Nearly every single thing that I have ever tried, I had the potential to excel at it. I have taken computer programming classes, can type 70-80 WPM, calc, physics, astro-physics, debate, and several AP courses… I am a Junior in college at UNK (Nebraska). I have studied Spanish for 6.5 years, as well as having a spot of experience translating for 6-8 months or so at a factory.

I enjoy using psychotropic drugs. I find that they help me manage my dream states. I spend an unusual amount of time contemplating metaphysics and alternate conceptions of reality. As an example, I had a lucid dream a few weeks ago wherein I took control of my entire universe and I began spontaneously creating instruments out of it, and blasted a grand symphony concerto into the heavens.

I spend an abnormal amount of my time calculating the possibilities of our existence. I have read nearly 2,000 books in my life. I grew up in dire straights. We lived in Anchorage, Alaska. I had 3 older brothers.

My dad was a good man above all else, but a drunk beneath it all. My mom had good intentions, but perhaps didn’t go about everything in the best of means. Long story short, I had a fucked up childhood, but I won’t bore you with the details.

“Think upon that which is good”

If I could sum myself up into a single sentence, it would be this: “Learn to love to learn.”

Because without learning, there is no true growth.

If you like having your mind blown every so often, I guarantee that you will like visiting my page.